justrun-.

i don't believe i am saying this

mrah. plans to lose weight are not going too well. mostly cos i have ponned three trng sessions in a row! a new record. i mean if the pot ain't there then what's the point. gonna end up feeling so depressed and very unmotivated anyway.

mugging is going at a very slow pace.

watched without limits for the third time. i love that show. prefontaine is great shit. i was cringing at the grotesque parts. like the bloody foot and the part where he died :( i really wish he didn't die! felt so sad after watching it. bill bowerman's DA BOMB.

nat'l day celebs were boring. over ate. well okay not so boring cos we were glued to the tv and my mouth was glued to the food. was looking out for lip syncing. like how the gong person accidentaly sang her lines too early. but there was NO SOUND coming out frm the mic! haahha. GOTCHA. lousy lousy. does NO ONE sing "live" anymore? the younger sister's friends were a bit weird. she got one of them to hug me. another to say "i love you!" to me. the second eldest sister also got a bit freaked out by the younger sister. she was asking for the second eldest sister's friends' telephone numbers. i fear for my younger sister's sexuality. she seems to be turning lesbian. no kidding! i mean she had or maybe still has this huge crush on a fellow sec4 from my school. and she will kiss the feet of anyone she deems pretty.

anw i was all alone sitting on the lonely chair eating lotsa food. lol. typical me :D antisocial. so i crept up to my room to get a spot of work done after that.

okay anyway as of now i am feeling chinasick. i don't know why the sudden onset of this terrible terrible terrible thing but . erm . yah. i still rmb how i was DYING over there. and even when i came back i was so happy to be back and thought "this is swell i'm never going back there again." now it's suddenly this AH I MISS CHINA feeling. like WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME -shakes self. maybe it's the thought of how i kinda screwed up over there. and how since i came back i have been in this very bad state (both mentally and physically). it's like i close my eyes and what do i see? THE SWIMMING POOL. or.. THE SMALL LOOP AROUND THE PLACE. or.. THE BIKE TRAINERS LINED UP. or even the chef whose accent i could never decipher. i miss how we could go out every night if we wanted. i miss the routine i suppose. wakeup, eat, train, bathe, eat, sleep, train, bathe, eat, sleep. and that was all there was to it.

now i guess i really need to focus on the mugging :( can't wait for EOYIs to be over. then i wanna train my ass off. hope i wouldn't have deteriorated too much beyond recovery. pah i'm feeling quite lonely and sad now that the four of them are in china. it's a very undescribable feeling. the thought that "hey i could be there right now". but i know even if i was i'd be screwing up cos my body's in a really crappy state now. AGH okay i am ranting. because i am sad.

missing the pot's tuff training. not too many cooks spoil the broth, but no pot means no broth. lol.

alrighty. dinner's called.

it will all be over soon.
it will all be over soon.
it will all be over soon.
-attempts to brainwash self

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

put on her shoes at [20:28]

and took [20060810] strides

it's the passion that drives you